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January 04, 2006

Exciting Grief Update!

So here's what I've made it through so far:

the day we were engaged
my birthday
Dan's birthday
Christmas Eve
New Year's Eve
New Year's Day

That's a pretty big list in just a few months. It feels good to add to the list and still be functioning. But I still wish every day he was with me.

I watched most of the Monk marathon on New Year's Day and in one of the episodes it was suspected that Monk's deceased wife was alive. That really freaked me out. I think I'm still at a stage where if Dan walked through the door, I would be excited and would be able to just pick up where we left off. But in few months, I think I would need more therapy to get over getting over the loss.

So, I'm feeling better than a week ago, and that's good. New Year's Eve wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I decided (very wisely) to pace myself and only accept one invitation for the evening. I also decided (very wisely) that I would consume a large amount of alcohol to help get me through the night. Whoever says booze is bad for you just isn't doing it right.

I returned to work today and everything was pretty much as when I left, with some minor changes. I'm still looking forward to my job. I think it's good for me after all these months to have to be somewhere at a certain time and interact with new people.

Posted by Stephanie at January 4, 2006 12:25 AM

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